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Back in black... [17 Apr 2004|12:41am]
[ mood | content ]

I think that over the months, I've transformed into someone that I don't think totally sucks. Then again, I probably still do, but that's for you to decide.

See the logs of my voluntary exile: broken_lotus. Friend me if you still love me... or don't. It's gravy.

Oh yeah, go watch Cabin Fever...it's possibly the funniest movie, ever.

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Spankin' new issue. [11 Jan 2004|06:32pm]



Thanks Brian!

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New Year's is a stupid holiday, but... [01 Jan 2004|03:11pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I know, I know, I said fifty, but I lied.

25 Things To Do Before I DieCollapse )

25 Things Not To Do Before I Die.Collapse )

Here's the last call for regrets
A final slowdance through the days that we all hold on to.


Happy 2004.

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[26 Dec 2003|06:08pm]
Merry freakin' holidays...

I heart you kids.

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Long time no see... [27 Nov 2003|10:02am]
[ mood | calm ]

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone! : )




Don't un-friend me. I still read the friends' list on here, even if I never update in this one anymore...

Have a great holiday.

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[30 Oct 2003|04:00pm]
Hiding out at my other journal for awhile. If I didn't add you, it's (probably) nothing personal.

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[29 Oct 2003|04:06pm]
[ mood | excited ]

If you ever want to go to space, just drive through a puddle. Ask Tim, he'll tell you all about it. Tim, who never leaves his Ultimate Fly Bitch Hoe behind. :D

I'm being a jester for halloween. This is ironic. Why? Because I'm not funny.

Next week is going to rule: Long Beach Island, and then Alkaline Trio. I swear, if anyone tries to piss on my vacational parade, this pacifist will crack skulls the only way she knows how: she'll cry!!!

Still debating about the LJ. Methinks it'd be for the best, but everything I think is for the best turns to shit. Like trusting people. Or, being a good friend. In the end, you just get all run over...



PS: I forgot to mention, subs give the best advice. Muahaha.

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[27 Oct 2003|03:37pm]
[ mood | loved ]

All in all, today was a rollercoaster of a day. But Jill actually made me fudge for my birthday, and everyone missed me in the morning :\ Sorry guys, this morning I was really not in the mood to see anyone (except Mr Tonucci to tell him that I saw ERIC FUCKING IDLE!!!!!). It made me feel so much better. I finally feel like I matter, and I'm wondering why it took me so long to lighten up and snap out of it. My friends just rule.

Unnecessary gush of the day: Dan treats me like a queen.

A new Livejournal may be coming soon but I'm not sure. I, like Kim used to be, am rather disconcerted with all the people that read it that I don't know about. And I'm kind of sick of this username, methinks.

Any ideas as to what I should be in school for Halloween?

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[26 Oct 2003|03:18pm]
Did I say Yankees in 5? I meant Marlins in 5. Yeah...

-sad face-

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[24 Oct 2003|10:58pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Unrequited love sucks much like your mother.

I...I give up. People are impossible. Even people you think you know like the back of your hand always manage to surprise you. And what about those people that you've known for so long and they still baffle you?

I guess it's the beauty, comedy, and tragedy of living your life like a novel; everyone has to be a three-dimensional character.

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..in a city that sleeps in a world upside down.. [23 Oct 2003|06:53pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Survey, bitchesCollapse )

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[22 Oct 2003|03:40pm]

HAPPY FREAKIN' BIRTHDAY TO SHARBEL.



He is quite possibly the coolest guy I know. Happy 17th, many x's and o's!

: )

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[21 Oct 2003|04:24pm]
[ mood | blank ]

So I did all the actual math and computation, and determined that out of 1500 students, I only really like about 30. That's roughly 2%, give or take some in case I forgot anyone.

I'm just wondering if the other 98% hates me yet.

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[20 Oct 2003|09:12pm]
[ mood | I'm a confused asshole. ]

I don't know what the hell I'm doing anymore. I'm hurting people, and I'm satisfied. And then the real part of me kicks in. I can't abandon him now. Even if he was a jerk and runs all over me, it's what people do when they're in a mire and they can't figure out how to get out. It's his way of dealing with things. I wish it didn't hurt so much, but it hurting me is a selfish thing.

I also wish I wasn't so easily frustrated. I should be patient with him, it's the only way to go. My family is passive aggressive all the time. I should be able to deal with it with my friends once in a while.

I'm so confused again. He turns me upside down. Yesterday I felt so pissed off, objectified, like I mean nothing to him. I can't help but still think that's true. Today my parents chewed me out for my desired course of action, and my parents are almost always right. What do I do now? I was so sure...

I just suck. And I just...suck.

Just forget about me.



i miss sparky...

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[19 Oct 2003|03:53pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

I really, really like Bowling For Soup. Does this make me a horrible person? Probably, but hey, at least I'm not totally devoid of intellect.

Janine is a really good driver. I got three CDs for under ten bucks and hanging out in Princeton is always fun. I got to stare longingly at Princeton University and have a teensy weensy bagel for lunch.

Today was cancer walkage. Nothing better than five miles. In relatively hilly Woodbridge. I think my legs and feet are calling for a mutiny.

I have to go read Gulliver's Travels and sit around and hope that Sparky will call me back. My bet? Yankees in 5.

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[18 Oct 2003|02:41pm]
dreamthrum 102%
screamingchild 102%
blacklight9700 95%
irishanarchy 91%
jeje21482 90%
suoicirpacyouth 87%
saturday_night 82%
ceesnail 81%
nasal 81%
alkalynex 79%
sacred_ikon 77%
redguardian 76%
chel23 75%
dreamthrum 75%
bradleyxchaos 74%
cautionfragile 68%
How compatible with me are YOU?



Okay, I'm off to Janine's soon. It's going to be crazy fun. And no videos will be released, so don't get your hopes up :P

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Geneaology... [18 Oct 2003|09:55am]
[ mood | awake ]

So, went to aunt Cheryl's and uncle Jeff's last night, and learned a few interesting things about my family history.

I am not Scottish. At all. This is especially interesting because my (Australian-born) great grandfather insisted that he was- that his father was Scottish.

...but his father was actually Irish...

And his mother was Spanish...

So I am now mostly Irish, except for a few ounces of German, Australian, Spanish, and more than a few ounces of Polish.

You learn something new every day...

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Freakin'....GO YANKEES! [17 Oct 2003|02:29pm]
[ mood | sick ]

It's amazing what an almost-impossible victory will do for a bad mood. What the fuck, who ties up a game in the EIGHTH INNING? What an amazing game... sorry to all you Boston kids, you fought a good fight, but NY is still better :D

Dan's mix also made me feel better. And so did everyone else I talked to about it...thanks kids.

I think I'm getting sick again : (

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You never had no say, it's true. [16 Oct 2003|09:19pm]
I haven't even known Dan for long and I've already acted like a bitch to him :\ I'm sorry.

Yeah, whatever. I thought myself into a shitty mood. The future is a scary thing. Especially when you feel like you've got no potential, when your parents send you mixed messages every five seconds as to what they want you to do with yourself, and not even you know what you're good at or what you're truly like, like whether you're a complete asshole or a good person. I spend most of my time feeling like the former and trying to act like the latter. I wonder how that works out. One big fucking identity crisis sounds about right...just another day of being my age and not knowing anything, I guess.

I could listen to this album forever.

screamingXchild: I am growing a vagina.

Feel better, Tim.

(I'm probably going to read this tomorrow and delete it)

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[14 Oct 2003|05:02pm]
[ mood | content ]

The fruit of various mid-life crises of my parents are arriving today. New dryer, new computer desk, new picture window, new door, and new refridgerator. Somehow, I doubt we have enough money to pay for all of this and my college tuition.

So I read Shooting an Elephant by George Orwell and realized, again, that I'm against animal cruelty. I also have a long standing rivalry with violence. I guess I fail to understand why people would be assholes to each other. I try not to be a jerk to anyone, and it's really not that difficult. Why people would go out of their way to be mean, violent, or hateful, is totally beyond me.

Today I stood up for what I believe in and the Mr. Clark Lookalike wasn't a dick about it at all. Hats off to him for not being anything like his predecessor. (I'm still not getting a new I.D., and even if I did I'd just write "I Am NOT a Barcode" on the front of that one too.) It feels good to fight for something I think is right.

I loaf Janine.

Fighting the system and doing very well in most of my classes... [stretches, cracks knuckles] All in a day's work... ;P

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